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Stressed beyond belief

In Uncategorized on February 6, 2012 at 8:08 pm

I have to blog it out right now. There’s no way I can be productive when I am this stressed out. This is another joy of blogging…. it’s something I enjoy so much, it requires little to no thought at all. I just sit down and write…. maybe I should switch my major to Creative Writing. Writing is the one thing that de-stresses me….

So as I have said before, I am taking 5 classes. So far, I am doing extremely well in all of my classes and if I stay on my current path, I should be passing them all with A’s. But the workload is starting to catch up with me. For one, I am almost completely neglecting my online math class…. if I plan on passing it, I need to do an assignment every day until 4/20. Then there’s humanities. Don’t get me wrong, I love the class and the professor is my most engaging professor yet….. but honestly there is a ton of work in his class. We have weekly readings and outlines. This week it’s The Great Gatsby. I have to outline the entire book by Thursday. I’m only partially finished with the 2nd of 9 chapters. I can do it, and will do it…. but will half kill myself in doing it. I have 3 tests for human growth and development, one test for my college success class, both due by Wednesday. I have a reaction paper due on the 15th and have yet to select a topic for it and have never written in APA format…. so I really should be working on that *now*. The easiest class is English, I don’t have to even put much thought into writing in there, it just comes that easily to me. My process paper that I recently turned in took 45 minutes from start to finish….literally- the brainstorming technique, the first draft, and final draft took 45 minutes…. but even still, 45 minutes is worth more than gold to me these days. I have kids…. THREE kids…. I feel awful when I have to tell them, “Not now sweetie, mommy’s busy”….. Like I seriously just had a mini-meltdown…. Of course the natural thing to do is question whether I should have even went back to school in the first place…. of course I know it was a good idea and no one ever said it was supposed to be easy…. i’m just not very good at managing stress….

I keep telling myself, “Your best is all you have to give.” but even that doesn’t seem good enough. I expect to pass with all A’s. That is my goal. Is that goal too high? Should I tell myself, “You have kids, just settle for a B”? I can’t, i’m too much of a perfectionist. So I am basically killing myself to get those A’s. It’s impossible to do my work with the kids around…. I just scored an 88 on my college success quiz…. REALLY? I mean, at least I can re-take it….. I just can’t seem to find a healthy balance…. On my average day I am up between 5:30 and 6:00…. I get ready and go straight to school. I stay there until about 12:30-1:00 so I can study after classes… By the time I get home, Kevin’s going to work and I am taking care of the kids until 8:00…. If I want to make it the next day, I really should be in bed around 9:00…. since I have to actually bathe my ass and get my shit ready for the next day, that doesn’t really leave much time to study so I am cramming everything into the weekend. I don’t even care that I have no social life. I don’t care that I have no time to myself. All I want to do is pass this semester and I will feel satisfied…. but it’s just so damn hard:-(

I’m done crying now, time to jump on my homework…..

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Not-so-smooth Criminal

In Uncategorized on November 30, 2008 at 4:03 am

door A couple of weeks ago, my house was robbed. My fiance and I left to drop the kids off at my parents house. We were gone for an hour and a half at the most. We came back with our Taco Bell, a luxury to us now days, only to open our door and find our entertainment cabinet tipped over with a missing 42 inch LCD.

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So- No Do-over?

In Uncategorized on November 12, 2008 at 5:42 am

room Is 24 the age of understanding for everyone- or is it just me? I have pondered about my personal quest in life and now at the tender age of 24 I have drawn up my conclusion- I want a do-over!

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My life is in your hands

In Uncategorized on October 25, 2008 at 3:42 pm

Do you know who you are driving behind? Do you really know who you are driving with? According to FARS, there were 37,248 traffic fatalities in the US in 2007. Are you a safe driver? Can I trust driving next to you? Is it OK if I merge onto the Interstate or are you one of the ones who speeds up to be 1 second early to your destination? Read the rest of this entry »