Not so secret after all

In Not so secret after all on October 15, 2008 at 9:50 pm

Am I the only one that is thrilled to take a personality test? I mean really, these things are so accurate it’s scary. It’s just enlightening to see that I am as unique as I think I am. Wow.

Idealist Portrait of the Champion (ENFP)

Like the other Idealists, Champions are rather rare, say two or three percent of the population, but even more than the others they consider intense emotional experiences as being vital to a full life. Champions have a wide range and variety of emotions, and a great passion for novelty. They see life as an exciting drama, pregnant with possibilities for both good and evil, and they want to experience all the meaningful events and fascinating people in the world. The most outgoing of the Idealists, Champions often can’t wait to tell others of their extraordinary experiences. Champions can be tireless in talking with others, like fountains that bubble and splash, spilling over their own words to get it all out. And usually this is not simple storytelling; Champions often speak (or write) in the hope of revealing some truth about human experience, or of motivating others with their powerful convictions. Their strong drive to speak out on issues and events, along with their boundless enthusiasm and natural talent with language, makes them the most vivacious and inspiring of all the types.

Fiercely individualistic, Champions strive toward a kind of personal authenticity, and this intention always to be themselves is usually quite attractive to others. At the same time, Champions have outstanding intuitive powers and can tell what is going on inside of others, reading hidden emotions and giving special significance to words or actions. In fact, Champions are constantly scanning the social environment, and no intriguing character or silent motive is likely to escape their attention. Far more than the other Idealists, Champions are keen and probing observers of the people around them, and are capable of intense concentration on another individual. Their attention is rarely passive or casual. On the contrary, Champions tend to be extra sensitive and alert, always ready for emergencies, always on the lookout for what’s possible.

Champions are good with people and usually have a wide range of personal relationships. They are warm and full of energy with their friends. They are likable and at ease with colleagues, and handle their employees or students with great skill. They are good in public and on the telephone, and are so spontaneous and dramatic that others love to be in their company. Champions are positive, exuberant people, and often their confidence in the goodness of life and of human nature makes good things happen.

Joan Baez, Phil Donahue, Paul Robeson, Bill Moyer, Elizibeth Cady Stanton, Joeseph Campbell, Edith Wharton, Sargent Shriver, Charles Dickens, and Upton Sinclair are examples of Idealist Champions.


So that is my profile. I knew it. I am a champion lol. It’s very aggrivating though. My Grandma always told me that I am too smart for my own good sometimes. And really, she’s right. Not to toot my own horn or anything but I am pretty clever. But I am so clever that I am plagued by self-doubt, always challenging my abilities and feeling that I am just not good enough. I get hung up on the details of life and it’s hard to really finish the things I initiate. I make life a little bit too complex than it has to be. I don’t do well with medicority. I have to know I am the best. I have to be sure of myself. I am not a risk-taker. It’s just not my style. Potential failure is disasterous to me so if I feel that there is a slight possibility of me failing, I steer clear. I may not do much but whatever I actually do you better believe it is getting done right. I hate being defeated. Last night my fiance and I were playing a triva game online and it was pissing me off to no end that he kept beating me. So I played him over and over again. Thats how I roll. I will stand out. I will make sure that my abilities out perform others’. Whenever we would get term papers in college, my ultimate goal was always to have the best paper. I couldn’t just be satisfied with getting an A. I needed feedback. I needed confirmation. I needed to be recognized. And I was- everytime. Everytime I wrote a paper it was the best.

It’s tiring, though. Very, very tiring. I am in Chicago right now visiting my brother and his family. They have that game Rock Band. I seriously want to play it constantly because as crazy as it sounds, I want to be better at it that anyone else LOL. Like seriously, I want a perfect score, everytime. This is exactly why  I try to limit myself. I don’t even watch TV because whatever I watch, I obsess over. The only things I watch on TV are HGTV and the NEWS. And I obsess over both of them. God forbid I really got into politics. I would seriously have to know the ins and outs of every aspect of politics to the point I could possibly run for President! That’s how crazy into things I get. I rarely clean unless I know that it will be perfect. I just have to be the best at everything.

As far as being intuitive, that is probably the best/worst aspect of me. I find myself reading people way too much. I sense things. It’s like my subconscious never rests. And no, I do not think I am psychic. But it’s like someone who is so good at the guitar that they put no thought into it whatsoever. They can do it blindfolded. It’s always running on auto-pilot. I am forever reading body language, analyzing the tone to someone’s voice, their eye movement, just the whole deal. But I dont consciously do it, it just comes naturally. So it’s very easy for me to tell what someone is about, I am very rarely wrong about someone. But you can’t explain that to other people. I can’t explain that to someone who doesn’t think the way I think or feel the way I feel because it’s so subtle it can go unnoticed. Like my fiance. He had a friend that I just didn’t like. It was just something about him. He didn’t outright do anything wrong but I could tell he was the type of person that could really screw someone over. So my fiance thought that I was just trying to control who he hangs out with. That wasn’t the case, it was just this one particular person that I did not like. Lo and behold this guy not only screwed my fiance over, he screwed over his own family. Just mentally retarded. And to me it was obvious he was like that but I guess not everyone picks that stuff up.

So more into this. There was an extended period of time where I was completely lonely and single. Every guy I met was not “suitable”. So I distanced myself from guys. I would avoid phone calls. I wouldn’t click with them. But when I met my fiance I could immediately tell he was a good person with good intentions. So my natural impatience tells me to rush things. I really did rush him. Because I see possibilities and it’s hard to let things run their own course, I like to skip all the inbetweens and get right down to business. So I always come off as bossy and pushy. But I just knew there was a good thing between me and him. Really, try explaining to someone that you just “know” something when they don’t just “know” it. That’s all I can say about it. Somethings I just “know”. And 90% of the time, I am right. I just am. So there ya go. Too smart for my own good.

This test was a little off though. I don’t have to “strive” towards personal authenticity. I have been authentic from day one. I have always been true to myself and who I am and have been very confident of who I am as a person. Ah. I just have to read this again. I love it lol.

  1. Your grandma was always right Kristi. Never doubt that for one minute. I know because I am just like her. Take it from one who knows, keep up the good writing.

  2. Mom- Oh I know, trust me. Thank you!

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